♥ The lies you weave are oh-so intricate,

I've to really start brainwashing myself. Or else, I'm really gonna end up crying everyday. 13 October better come quick.

To anyone who cares: I'm sorry/not sorry of who I've become. I'm not pointing fingers or blaming anyone but myself. I've decided to do what I'm gonna do & turn out this way, cause I want to. Give up trying to change me, dont waste your time. I just really had enough. Tried, but didnt work. So, kiss me goodbye cause this is the last of 'me'.

If you didnt get that, then that's okay. I'm not going MIA or hiatus that kinda thing. Just _____________. Yah, correct!






Monday?

Haikal quickquickquick! I neeeeeeeeeeed, & I mean NEED.

Wanna know something? I'm quitting SL. Wanna know something else? I havent study for Amaths & Physics. Vanessa = can seriously go bang my head against the wall alr. DIE LE DIE LE. Whatever it is that's making me this way, fuck it manzxz. I'm so paranoid & confused & everything. I dont even know what I want or what I am. I'm gonna retain or drop to NA next year. I'm serious. Crap la. Geezxz. I dont wanttttttt. I really dont. & after exams, I'm seriously gonna be someone I dont think you'll ever remember. That's just the way it is. & thanks alot, you've made up my mind.

I'm not coming back, I've done something so terrible;
I'm terrified to speak. But you'd expect that from me.

♥